I take such long breaks in between blogging. I must get better at that. Maybe I should set a goal to do it at least once a week. I will work on that. I have so much that I want to write about. I have so many goals that I am working on right now because I want to be living my dream. This is just a quick little update, but I’m going to truly gather my thoughts and work on a post this week.

Sharon

I haven’t posted since last year. I will have to collect my thoughts and do a year end review. Let’s see how that goes. Back to this later!

Well, my birthday just passed and I’m officially OLD. I kid, I kid.

Actually, I don’t feel old at all. I guess I’m the epitome of “young at heart” because that’s exactly how I feel. I know that I still have a lot of years ahead of me and I’m going to need every bit of those years to make my dreams come true. I can’t put my finger on exactly what I think I should be doing, but I know that the life I’m leading right now is not my dream. So starting this year, I want to make it MY DREAM LIFE. I want to find my creativity and come up with the perfect plan to live out everything my heart desires.

I don’t think I’ve ever dreamed of being famous, but I have definitely dreamed of being successful and comfortable money wise. I never dreamed of being rich, per se. But I never saw myself lacking.

When I was younger, I thought I wanted to be a nurse. I went to nursing school and everything….of course I never finished. Three years into the program, I realized that wasn’t really what I wanted to do. I wasn’t all that great at science, which should have told me that I shouldn’t have been in that field anyway! But I was to stubborn at the time to really see that. Finally, I was forced to, though. My grades weren’t up to par and even though I switched my major to business, I just became so lost and disheartened that I FAILED at something.

Now I know Nursing wasn’t for me. But it’s been a very long road at finding a new dream career-wise. I still struggle with it now because I know what I’m doing right now is definitely not what I envisioned OR what I really want. So the big question is….what do I want? That is by far the toughest question I have had to answer. I want to find the answer this year because I think that is the key to my happiness and success.

I’m sitting here very early in the morning watching a movie titled Medicine for Melancholy. It made me start thinking about the dreams that I used to have when I was younger. Falling in love, having children, great dates, great career….etc. All things that never happened and probably never will happen for me. The question I find myself asking is what do you do when your dreams don’t come true? Do you make new dreams or do you hold out? I never considered myself as an undriven person, but I guess I just never felt passionate enough about these things that I could figure out a way to make them happen for me. Hmmm…just thinking & typing.

I absolutely love this show. This season is 20 times better than the last season. The additions to this years cast is excellent! So far, Franklin Mott and Alcide have been the best additions. Of course, I’m also looking forward to finding out what is going on with Lafayette and Jesus. Not sure what I’m thinking of Jason’s new girl toy. I know she’s not what she seems. Can’t wait for the next episode!

Sex or Shoes? Today I told a friend that I had created a blog but I was struggling with what I wanted to write about on it or even if I wanted it to have a specific “tone”. Her reply, before she saw my message about not knowing what I wanted it to be about was, are you going to write about sex or shoes? Two things that I love but definitely did not think of blogging about. But her comment made me realize that I do want this blog to be very straight forward. I don’t want to worry about what someone will think of the things that I write which is a reason that I love that it’s mostly anonymous. So, what this blog will be about is me. The real me. Not the careful me that is afraid to hurt anyone’s feelings.

I’ve created this blog because it’s something that I have always wanted to do.  Now I sit here and wonder exactly what I would like for this blog to be about.  I guess it will just be about me, my life, and the things that I would like to accomplish.  I currently have so many goals and as time goes by, I am sure I will speak about them.  Hopefully I will achieve one or two.   So, let’s begin and see where this road leads me.  If nothing else, I will get some great practice on my writing skills which has always been something that I’ve wanted.