I’m a forever single girl. It’s my lot in life. Because of this, I’m pretty independent. I have to be. I don’t have anyone to fall back on if stuff happens. The only person that I had to fall back on was my mom and she’s been gone for many years. So now…it’s just me, and that’s ok.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m a strange one because I spend the majority of my time alone and I like it. I’m used to it. I grew up being used to it. See, not only am I a single girl…I’m an only child. I have always had to entertain myself when there was no one around. I grew up spending a lot of time with friends and cousins, but mostly I was by myself.
When I was a teenager, I once saw this lady who I believe may have been in her 40’s walking across a street mumbling to herself about no needing anyone. I always think this is a strange thing to remember because it was so random. I sometimes wonder if that was younger me seeing a vision of older me? It’s odd to remember it so vividly, when I may not even remember what I had for dinner yesterday.
Sometimes I think that it would have been nice to have someone to lean on. Sometimes I just don’t want to deal with things and it would be good to have someone say “I got you.” Then I come back to reality and just try my best to pull out my inner girl boss and handle stuff.
Anyways…these are just my early morning jumbled thoughts.
Til next time….