Every year around this time, I start to reassess my life and count my accomplishments. I haven’t had many in the last few years, however I am hoping to change that in 2014. With that being said, I am actually going to make a few resolutions this year. I have not, honestly, made any resolutions in a few years simply because I was afraid to fail at them. Is anyone else guilty of this? This will be a year where I will actually make 100% effort to improve my happiness. So here I am, preparing to actually type these resolutions into this blog.
In 2014, I would like to blog more. I enjoy writing. I’m not great at the technical part of it, but it has been something that I have enjoyed all of my life. I am the person that kept a diary from as early as I can remember. It excited me to get one every year for Christmas. As I got into my teenage years, I began purchasing my own. Those diaries are hilarious. I still have a few. They were the ones with the little keys which did nothing for security, but never the less, I loved it. My mom told me that she always read them! I was shocked at the invasion of privacy, but since I didn’t know about it back then..no harm, no foul. She was right though, they were boring as heck and it just gave her confirmation that she had no concern of me going out and getting into trouble. See, this is why this blog is called the ramblings of me. I get off into a tangent with my jumbled up thoughts. That’s ok though. So, this first resolution is to commit to this blog. I would like to keep it updated and do a blog post once a week. I think that’s a very good, attainable beginning.
My second resolution is the ever popular, lose weight! I have struggled with my weight all of my life, but back in 2006, I lost 50 lbs with the help of a personal trainer. I loved it! I loved myself for accomplishing something that I had never done before. That was the most weight I had ever lost. So honestly, I would like to go back to that place where I was so health conscious. It was not only about losing weight, but just becoming more healthy in general. I exercised regularly, I was conscious of all the food that I ate. I ate almost completely organic and I would definitely like to be that way again. I ate little processed food. I took vitamins every day. If I ate out, I was careful about what I purchased and how much of it I ate. I found myself getting frustrated when I reached a plateau, but I certainly wish it would not have stopped my process the way that it did. I have definitely fallen back into some bad habits that I will be working on this new year. The immediate changes are to start walking, stop drinking sodas, and no pizza! Those were my three major concerns that I had back then, so I figure that is a good place to start to get back onto my healthy habits.
My third resolution is to start reading more. I was/am a reader, however when I started back to school, it slacked off. I miss reading for fun. I miss reading for entertainment purposes. I have so many books that I purchased that I haven’t had the opportunity or time to start, but I know I would enjoy them. So my goal is to read some of those books that are stacking up. Reading helps my brain! Maybe that is why I have spent this year in a cloud of misunderstanding and uncertainty of my life.
My final resolution is to BE HAPPY. This is my ultimate goal in life. It has been a struggle the last few years. I just haven’t found my way through finding my joy. I need to deal with all the stress and unhappiness in my life and obliterate it! One of my favorite vloggers always says “Happiness is a choice.” I believe that. I also believe that sometimes your choices are not your own. It’s time to make my choices mine again. What I want to do. Not what others want me to do or expect me to be. I’m going to do what feels good.
Now, I have a ton more other things I would like to do such as making more improvements to my house, starting my own business, and just becoming perfect. Well…perfect in my head at least, but I think that if I stick to these resolutions and work really hard on them, it will make the final resolution and the other small list of things happen. Oh…and I graduate with my bachelor’s degree this year. Yay! I’m excited about that. I don’t think I will continue going to school after that but it will be a big accomplishment for me. That is a goal years in the making. Ohh..and another thing. I had always been a business minded person. I think I lost a little bit of that in the last few years simply because I let people knick away at my confidence. I definitely want that back. I am going to work on all of these things and fingers crossed, come out on top of 2014.
Whew! This was a long one, but I felt the need to write all of this down. 2013 was definitely one of my least favorite years, but I am determined to make 2014 the best! Thanks for reading.