Do you ever just want to get in the car and just drive until you run out of gas? I have dreamed about doing this so many times and just live in whatever small town I land in. Whenever I envision myself doing this, I always see me working in some diner like the movie, Alice doesn’t live here anymore, and better yet the series that followed, Alice!
I don’t know. Sometimes I just feel like starting all over again. Lately, I have wanted to toss everything out of my house and just….start over. I think that this feeling is just a metaphor for how junky my life feels. It’s not just the things, it’s everything. Everything just feels a complete mess. What would it be like to not have feelings? Not have a care in the world? Not feel pain, sadness, boredom, etc. Is that selfishness?
Overwhelmed with feelings and maybe just a little sleep deprived.
I was watching Wedding Date the other evening and sat their wondering why cheesy, romantic comedies please me so much. I’m still trying to figure that out but for two hours on Monday night, while I was skipping out of my music class, I was happily watching this movie on cable. I escaped into another place and wondered what if I were in this movie? How would I feel? What would I be doing? Hmmm…wonder what kind of man $6000 from my 401k could get me? Would he look like Dermot Mulroney?
Just the randomness in my brain.
The beginning of last year, I found myself thrown back into my youth when I became obsessed with the television show, Moonlighting, again. It took all my worries away and I would lay on my sofa in the living room and watch episode after episode. I now own four seasons. I have been unable to locate the fifth season. The point of this post is to say, I miss the girl of my youth. I had so many dreams and even though I still have dreams, it feels that when you become an adult with responsibilities, your dreams seem so far off and unattainable. It feels as if life is passing you by and the thought of starting over to pursue these dreams is just scary. I have decided that this year will be a year of list making and scratching off the accomplishments as I go. That list will include some of my dreams. They may be on a smaller scale, but I’m determined to make this year a great one by achieving some of my goals. I don’t think did that at all last year. Last year, I just was flying by the seat of my pants and dealing with everything being tossed at me as they happened. This year, I will try to be proactive. This means that I will be seeking to control every situation in my life instead of reacting to it. Wish me luck!
As I sit here thinking about what a nice holiday today was, I have had the great privilege of watching some of my favorite Christmas movies. This morning I watched Elf, which is the most current movie that has quickly become one of my favorites. Right now, I am watching the 1994 version of Miracle on 34th Street. I BELIEVE! 🙂 As I have mentioned in previous posts, I love the holiday season. It gives me a lot of time to reflect on the things that I have accomplished this year, and unfortunately many things that I have not. Well, those things will continue to be on my list for next year. I hope that you all have had a wonderful holiday and day of reflection, and time spent with your families.
If you have read my previous blogs, you know that yesterday was an exciting day for me. Yesterday was the first day of Hallmark’s Countdown to Christmas! Yes, I began watching immediately when I got home from work and appointments. The holiday season is upon us and that makes me giddy. There’s no better time of the year than this. Everyone is gearing up for the holidays which mean they are usually really happy!
Another happy moment for me is that I am almost done with school and close to getting that darn Bachelor’s degree that have alluded me all these years.
Happy ThanksgivingMas people! (I just made that up.)
What a great weekend. It was beautiful outside in Georgia, but I really wouldn’t know. That’s what I heard. My weekend was filled with Christmas movies and cleaning. It was actually very relaxing. I got a lot of cleaning done (which was long overdue) while I watched the beginning days of Hallmark’s Countdown to Christmas. I love this time of the year. It seems that most people are very excited for the good tidings even if they sometimes complain about commercialism, missing Thanksgiving, to early for holiday movies, blah, blah, blah. Most say it with a smile.
Me….I love it. I’m ready for the constant calls and discussions with family members. I’m excited to go shopping on Black Friday, even though I rarely make any purchases that day. I just enjoy being out there with all of the people. I can tell I’m loving it to, my skin seems brighter, my hair seems silkier and I feel HAPPY! My wish is that everyone can enjoy this time and appreciate it.
I was sitting here just thinking about how excited I am for the holiday movies to start playing on the Hallmark Channel. Every year, my television stays glued to that channel on the weekends. I don’t have much time to watch them during the week since I am working which is why I am so grateful that they play them continuously. It gives everyone a chance to see them. I know, it’s only October and Halloween hasn’t even arrived yet. I already have Christmas on the brain. I’m trying to hold out on my holiday music so that I won’t drive my co-workers nuts….but I’m ready! 🙂