Whatever happened to….

Quotation-Morgan-Marouani-life-reality-dreams-ambition-Meetville-Quotes-199022I recently posted on Facebook that I kinda miss my 24 year old self.  It’s true.  I miss that girl.  She had so many dreams and was fearless about what was to come.  At 24, I made the decision to leave home and drive 800+ miles to live in Georgia.  I had such plans.  I was going to become successful!  Now, I did not have those dreams of singing, acting, etc.  I just wanted to become this great business woman that would provide me with the ability to take care of my mother.  That was my dream.  I wanted to be an entrepreneur.  Thinking back to it now, I realize why it did not happen.  I did not have a plan.  I had no clue what I wanted to do.  All I knew when I got here is that I needed a job to be able to pay bills and keep food on my table.  Not a bad goal.  After all, my mother didn’t raise someone show shirks responsibility.  I had to be level headed and needed to know how I was going to make it in this big city.

Unfortunately, due to that feeling of being responsible, I got caught up on the normality of a decent paying job and lost sight of my real goal that caused me to leave Wisconsin.   So, now I am asking myself “what happened to that 24 year old girl?”  I need to get a hold of her again and we need to talk so that we can get back on track with our dreams.

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Black and White Hi-Lo Dress

I woke up feeling all pretty and girly this morning, so I decided to finally wear my last new dress that I purchased a while ago. It is a black and white hi-lo dress from Lane Bryant. It can be worn with the optional straps or strapless. I decided to add the straps since it was pretty early in the morning and I wasn’t doing much but running errands and of course heading out to the malls. Originally, I envisioned myself wearing this with a bright yellow shrug and yellow wedge sandals, but I could never find the shrug and just got tired of staring at the beauty in my closet.

So, I threw it on along with a few silver accessories and silver thong sandals to further casual it down, and off I went. I made sure to use my Bathina body balm by Benefit so that I could be a bronzed goddess. I felt beautiful. The weather was perfect for it. It was about 75 degrees, sunny, with a slight breeze.

So, here are the pictures of my lovely outfit this morning, along with a picture of some Kate Spade heels that I would have liked to wear with it if I could manage to walk in a heel that high that isn’t a wedge.

My make up was pretty much the same that I wore for yesterday’s barbecue. I think it is becoming my summer look. Let me know your thoughts. I am truly enjoying wearing dresses for the first time in my life.

Talk to you all soon!

Happy Independence Day!

Today was a very nice day. Me, my best friend, her aunt and mom were all invited over to a friend’s house for a barbecue to celebrate the holiday. We enjoyed turkey burgers, sausages, macaroni salad, baked beans, pecan and apple salad, and watermelon (which I don’t eat) for dessert.

Now, none of my friends in Georgia like their pictures taken and shared online, so unfortunately the only photo that I have to share is of myself. I tried to dress festively in my blue sleeveless shirt by Maitai and a pair of white shorts by Lane Bryant. I wore silver sandals that my friend brought back from India. It was the perfect outfit for a summer barbecue. Of course, being the klutz that I am, I spilled baked beans on my shorts. I usually carry Shout wipes with me for things like this but I used my very last one yesterday. See…common occurrence with me and wasting food on my clothes.

My make up was very simple. I used a primer which helps keep the shine down, Mally Volumizing mascara, Anastasia brow wiz in granite to fill in my brows, YSL Volupte Sheer Cherry on my lips, and Hourglass Ambient Lighting blush lumeire in diffused heat on my cheeks.

This was a great start to a nice three day weekend. Happy 4th of July.

Talk you you all soon.

Instant Gratification

Instant Gratification

I finally caved and purchased a YSL lipstick. Honestly, I have been wanting one for over a year, but just could not justify the price in my head. Well, I finally did it and I could not be happier. I made sure to get a color that was very wearable. There were two colors that I was interested in which were, #5 Volupte Sheer Candy and #19 Fuchsia in Range.

As I mulled over my decision, it was quickly made for me! They were completely out of #19, so #5 it was. I have been wearing it since I walked out of the store with it. It is surprisingly long wearing. It is so moisturizing and sheer that I thought it wouldn’t last long on my lips but it does. A very pleasant surprise. The color is sheer, but it gives a perfect tint of the red color. Lipsticks last me forever, so I’m sure I will have this for a very long time.

I love my weekend purchase, and I have already gotten compliments on it which makes it even more worth it in my book. Talk to you all soon….

Deni

Bath & Body Works Sale!

Bath & Body Works Sale!

My two favorite sales at B&BW is the Buy 3, Get 3; and the Two for $22 candles. Use the lovely 20% off coupon or $10 off $30 coupon and you get an even greater deal. I have been out of pretty much all of my scents for a few months while I waited for the next sale, so I finally got to restock my lotions, sprays, and shower gels. My new favorite scent is Oahu. I had to work hard not to go crazy and get only that one. 🙂

Pirates and Vikings….Oh My!

A couple of blogs ago, I mentioned that I had really become a fan of the show, Black Sails, on STARZ which is about pirates.  I can’t believe that I only have three more episodes of this show to watch before the season ends and I have to wait a full year for the continuation.  Well, this past weekend, I found something new to watch in the interim.  As I was searching for something to watch while suffering from a nasty stomach virus, I came across Vikings on The History Channel.  I watched the entire ten episodes of the first season in one day!  I found this show just in time too as their new season starts this week!  Now, while Vikings doesn’t have the eye candy that Black Sails offers me in the glorious form of Captain Vane, I’m still enthralled by all that heathen behavior! Besides, Ragnar and Rollo are still pretty decent, just not up to Captain Vane’s stature…but I digress.

Now, I can say that I struggled more with some of the violent things that the Vikings did as opposed to the Pirates on Black Sails, and I’m trying to figure out why.  They are all murderers and rapists.  I assume that it is because Vikings is trying to remain true to their ways?  I mean after all, it is on The History Channel so they need to be more careful with accuracy, right?

Anyway, Vikings and Pirates were the main characters in many of the historical romance books that littered my youth, so I am enjoying them being on my television screen.  All that testosterone is invading my dreams!

Talk to you soon…..

Crazy Week

It has been a crazy week for me.  I spent a day in a half stuck in the house because of the ice storm in Atlanta.  The snow storm from two weeks ago really scared us crapless.  I know I did not want another ten hour drive home and apparently no one else did either!  Our streets were almost completely abandoned except for the news people who covered the weather non-stop. It was a little over kill on their behalf, but I appreciated the effort I think.  Thank goodness for YouTube.  I spent the time searching for new vloggers watch.  Even though, I really should have been working on a blog post since I have been missing in action for about two weeks.

On top of the storm, I was preparing for a test for the last class I was in and writing a paper.  Because of the storm though, the last class and test was cancelled.  I can’t say that I was sad to hear that. Tests always stress me out.

In addition to finding a couple of new vloggers, I have become slightly addicted to the new series on STARZ, Black Sails!  OK, now anyone who has been reading my blog knows that I love romance books.  Historical romances can certainly romanticize pirates, and looking at the extremely sexy but dangerous Charles Vane has given my fantasies a very needed boost!  Woah….long, dark hair, light eyes, scruffy beard, and a commanding presence is all that is needed to make me a happy viewer!  He has filled the void that Game of Thrones left when they killed off my Khal Drogo!  Thank you STARZ.

Talk to you all soon…..

Life Changes

How does a person go about making a life change? Let me do a quick flashback..

I remember a conversation that I had with my mother a long time ago. She was possibly the same age that I am not or a little older. She was telling me how she was frustrated and wished that she could do something different with her life. She was speaking about a new career. Now, my mother had a city job for as long as I could remember but she felt….unaccomplished? Or bored? I don’t know. I remember my response to her, “Well, why don’t you get a new job?” Now I think…oh from the mouths of babes. 🙂

Now I’m at the age that she was and seemingly at a similar crossroad. I realize now why she was so scared to make a change. She had a good job, she could provide for her family, and she knew what to expect every day. It is so stressful to make a life change when there are responsibilities involved. Now, I admit, my decision is a little easier for me since I don’t have children but still….changing a career or making a big move is hard. My biggest and toughest decision so far was going back to school! But anyway, I think about this story a lot because at the time, I didn’t understand. I had so many jobs by the time I was 23, that I just thought if you were tired of something, you just changed it. But I had my mom to rely on. If something didn’t work out for me, I could just go home.

Well, my mom passed away almost 10 years ago now, so making these decisions are so much harder. I can’t go home anymore. I have to live with the decisions that I make and hope for the best. I am continually questioning myself on everything. I am wondering if I am doing the right thing. How do I go about making a plan? What do I really want to do with the rest of my life? Am I having a mid-life crisis?

So here I am, on the road to some big life changes. It feels as if I’m just rolling with the punches and I had hoped I would not be doing that. I’m trying to be confident in my decisions, but I’m telling you….fear is getting the best of me. BUT….I’m still trotting on. I’m trying to face those negative and scary thoughts and just keep my goal in mind. I saw a glimpse of my dream last weekend. It was a beautiful boutique that I go in frequently, but is nearly exactly what I want. I hope I make it there.

Snowed in Atlanta

Wow! I can say that I was one of the fortunate people that actually made it home last night even though it took me ten hours to do so. It was unbelievable what I saw out there yesterday. Cars were just stuck on ice or parked on the side of the road because drivers had given up on even attempting to get home. I understand that. By the time I got home, my nerves were shot. I went straight to bed after eating a handful of fruit snacks.

Now, I moved to the South to get away from the snow and cold, so it always annoys me when I have to deal with it and the situations that occur because of it. I immediately thought to myself that I need to move to yet another warm climate. But then, I was moved by all the good Samaritans that I encountered. There were civilians who came from their warm houses to try to help all the stranded drivers out of the ice. There were some who even had boxes of salt, to put down under car tires to help the motorists. Finally, when I was oh so close to home at 10pm last night, there was a couple out walking down the road offering muffins and water to the drivers that had been out there for possibly more than eight hours like myself! I was to nervous to take anything to eat or drink because I was afraid it would make me have to find a restroom. I had done well with that so far.

I am still having trouble even comprehending everything that happened. All I can say is that I have never seen anything like it and hope that I never do again. The biggest lesson learned? Although Georgia may get on television saying how ready they are for the storm, they are not. Georgia DOT will never be able to handle snow and ice in an effective way so next time snow and ice is predicted….I’m staying home.